Caralove's Blog

Feeling within

Cara — Sat, 01 Oct 2011 22:23:02 +0000

On our way home….On our journey, we remember what experiences we have had and we look forward to the future, but what we spend a lifetime seeking is already within us. All we need to do is quiet the mind long enough to listen and hear/feel/know ourselves as a part of the universal energy, to tap into the infinite universal mind and all the inherent wisdom that comes with it. It can only be found in present moments. Letting go of the past and future and just sit with what is right now will set the platform for such a connection. No resistance, only openess to infinite possibilities….

today

Cara — Sat, 01 Oct 2011 06:35:15 +0000

the culmunation of many experiences, i am left with a netowrk of shapes forming a present day perception. The filter can be altered, the reality changed, with thought. Thoughts, trickling down to chemical reactions changing our physiology and how we act, react, pro-act to the world and how we ultimately shape our reality.
Now, according to Mayan calendar is a time of great upheaval, a time of extremes, of great loss and great opportunity, the powerful energy is present, how we surf these waves over the next while will impact the outlook for the rest of our lives. Running in the forest to catch a mental ‘break’ from the insanity brought forth an instant clam the moment I realized almost all my trip had been spent watching the ground so I didnt trip on the roots of the trees….but I was missing an entirely different experience, that of looking up, the light in the trees, the cascading rays illumiating thousands of leaves, bathing in an air of gold, birds chirping and flying happily on the warm summer day….our perspective is everything, and the freedom to choose our thoughts is forever present.

Wake up

Cara — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 09:53:35 +0000

days , minutes, seconds

time

cells, molecules , atoms

space

What is the difference in the

illusion of forms?

Shapes impermanent,

nothing ‘real’.

At the end of the road I see no end….

no beginning.

Is-ness at any moment

twirling , twirling around they all go,

drunk dizzy like its real

action, reaction.

Wake up, then u will see you were sleeping.

Rising out of a long coma….

Cara — Sat, 04 Dec 2010 23:22:21 +0000

It is the internal knowing

the gift I have been given in being pushed to extreme. loss pf physcial and strain of mental health….a swirling vortex of chaos and pushing even when limits were present and signalled both mentally and physically…..until breakdown….and then breakthrough

the gift

in my experience in the field I am in, we learn about disease, what it presents as, the mechanism of that state, and how to treat….

what is of value is the pattern recognition….to see in oneself destructive tendencies/thoughts, anything that keeps you from reaching your goals–

are the gift

we are all one

experience with self not only helps in recognition of another and those of similar patterns, but in the deeper knowing, in the core of being of imbalance….to be the watcher, not the mechanistic action/reaction we often associate with.

I have a valuable lesson, it is time to get stronger, with this in hand.

Education of exactly what to do may not all be there yet, but it doesnt matter, what i have now is a knowing that i cannot forget…..it may not be tested in an exam, but in life–its the difference between ordinary and bringing full potential.

To get caught up in the story of events….to identify with them….is to loose your true ‘self’ the watcher behind the mechanism of Ego

“I am”!!!

Eckhart on Love

Cara — Sat, 20 Nov 2010 08:48:45 +0000

Love and joy are inseparable from your natural state of inner connectedness with Being. Glimpses of love and joy or brief moments of deep peace are possible whenever a gap occurs in the stream of thought.
For most people, such gaps happen rarely and only accidentally, in moments when the mind is rendered “speechless,” sometimes triggered by great beauty, extreme physical exertion, or even great danger. Suddenly, there is inner stillness. And within that stillness there is a subtle but intense joy, there is love, there is peace.

Usually, such moments are short-lived, as the mind quickly resumes its noise-making activity that we call thinking. Love, joy, and peace cannot flourish until you have freed yourself from mind dominance. But they are not what I would call emotions. They lie beyond the emotions, on a much deeper level. So you need to become fully conscious of your emotions and be able to feel them before you can feel that which lies beyond them. Emotion literally means “disturbance.” The word comes from the Latin emovere, meaning “to disturb.”

Love, joy, and peace are deep states of Being, or rather three aspects of the state of inner connectedness with Being. As such, they have no opposite. This is because they arise from beyond the mind. Emotions, on the other hand, being part of the dualistic mind, are subject to the law of opposites. This simply means that you cannot have good without bad. So in the unenlightened, mind-identified
condition, what is sometimes wrongly called joy is the usually short-lived pleasure side of the continuously alternating pain/pleasure cycle. Pleasure is always derived from something outside you, whereas joy arises from within. The very thing that gives you pleasure today will give you pain tomorrow, or it will leave you, so its absence will give you pain. And what is often referred to as love may be pleasurable and exciting for a while, but it is an addictive clinging, an extremely needy condition that can turn into its opposite at the flick of a switch. Many “love” relationships, after the initial euphoria has passed, actually oscillate between “love” and hate, attraction and attack.

Real love doesn’t make you suffer. How could it? It doesn’t suddenly turn into hate, nor does real joy turn into pain. As I said, even before you are enlightened — before you have freed yourself from your mind — you may get glimpses of true joy, true love, or of a deep inner peace, still but vibrantly alive. These are aspects of your true nature, which is usually obscured by the mind. Even within a “normal” addictive relationship, there can be moments when the presence of something more genuine, something incorruptible, can be felt. But they will only be glimpses, soon to be covered up again through mind interference. It may then seem that you had something very precious and lost it, or your mind may convince you that it was all an illusion anyway. The truth is that it wasn’t an illusion, and you cannot lose it. It is part of your natural state, which can be obscured but can never be destroyed by the mind. Even when the sky is heavily overcast, the sun hasn’t disappeared. It’s still there on the other side of the clouds.”

inner and outer

Cara — Sat, 20 Nov 2010 08:36:57 +0000

I believe to define each is, in itself, a misconception.
You and I, him and her, that tree and the birds in it…..all share one energy.
Yes, change begins from within and is manifested around us, but the soup of energy in which we all create our realities, is shared, and the energy from which we started and end our breif time here, is also shared energy.
Experience what we can, help others on their paths, as they too are an extension of ourselves…for all too quickly our time is up, passing in a moment to moment basis of opportunities…..until we exit to another plane.

August extremes

Cara — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 01:11:59 +0000

Turmoil surrounds me like a vortex

looming clouds ahead

lost souls distracting from path…

cords cut.

Lighter, faster, urge from deep within

to work harder.

Feeling like the steel rain

penetrates into my skin;

melting metal

only adds fuel to

a smoothly growing

inferno of flames.

Summer heat

Cara — Thu, 19 Aug 2010 05:17:18 +0000

High in the sky it sits

sun beating down.

stifling hot

oppression of senses.

Lead laden legs

agonizing slow movement

Time stands

in the stagnation of heat

Ever harder pushing

grinding

a halt.

conciousness

Cara — Thu, 19 Aug 2010 05:09:53 +0000

Quote

Cara — Wed, 14 Apr 2010 20:01:54 +0000

“Be present as the watcher of your mind — of your thoughts and emotions as well as your reactions in various situations. Be at least as interested in your reactions as in the situation or person that causes you to react. Notice also how often your attention is in the past or future. Don’t judge or analyze what you observe. Watch the thought, feel the emotion, observe the reaction. Don’t make a personal problem out of them. You will then feel something more powerful than any of those things that you observe: the still, observing presence itself behind the content of your mind, the silent watcher.” E Tolle